On July 10, 2012 our family experienced a major loss of a loved one when my thirty six year old sister-in-law died from stage 4 breast cancer. She had received the diagnosis in August of 2011 so the next eleven months were fast and furious. For anyone that has ever experienced the cancer journey you can understand the gamut of emotions that comes with this scenario. I don’t know if the pain truly ever goes away….it just becomes different.
Five years after Michelle’s passing, July 11, 2017, I had a dream. It was the first time since she had died that I dreamt of her. In the dream she was moving quickly and taking me from place to place and it seemed like we were flying. As she was pulling me along, as I remember it, I was crying and telling her how much I missed her.
Suddenly she stopped and looked at me. She said “I am still around; it is just different.” You need to quit crying. I just looked at her and said “I don’t know how”. She then took my hand and said come with me, I want to show you something. The next thing I remember we were in my son’s house. We were in the rec room and he was laying on the floor with gym trunks on watching television. That looked very familiar to me as that is a position I saw him in on numerous occasions.
Michelle then looked at me and said “watch this”. She went over beside him and started touching his leg. As she did that he was swiping at it with his hand; as if something was crawling on him. Then she started laughing and said “now watch”…she then pulled the hair on his leg which caused him to jump and really swat at his leg. As Michelle was laughing she said “he has no idea this is me”. I joined in the laughter with her and woke up at that point. Upon awakening I was laughing with tears running down my cheeks from previous crying. I immediately journaled this experience and it was six o’clock in the morning.
At nine o’clock in the morning I called my son. I told him I wanted to ask him something and told him he could take time to think about it. I asked him the following “Have you ever had an experience where it feels like something is crawling on your leg or pulling your hair on your leg? Yet, there is nothing there”. He replied “I don’t have to think about it…it happened yesterday”. My mouth fell open at that point and I remained silent. So he proceeded to tell me the same story I just told you. He stopped abruptly during the telling of his story and blurted out “why are you asking me this?” “How did you know?” As I told him about the dream I had…. he became a believer something had happened… because what I knew had been his reality.
How do dreams work? I do not know and I am certainly not an expert of “dreamology”. However, I learned at that moment that dreams can certainly bring us God shots. The Bible contains many scriptures regarding dreams. One of my favorites is regarding Joseph when “An angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, Get up! Take the Child and His mother and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you…” (Matthew 2:13)
My dream about Michelle brought me God’s message “not to cry” as Joseph’s dream brought him instruction.
Have you ever had a dream that brought you guidance? Hope? Inspiration? Instruction? If you have I would love to hear about it. I hope that you will take the time and share and help open a dialog around the world!